Wednesday, May 5, 2010

The Secret Treasures Hidden Within the Filth

I have been an adult entertainer for years.  Why and how is not important in this entry.  There are the few that know my story, and I mean very few.  In this life, and many that came before it and those that will come after it, you will experience things that you feel you are experiencing alone.  Yea yea Heaven....we ALL know that.  Get on with it.

My beautiful friend told me the story of Echo & Narcissus today.  He teaches me many things and I find him quite fascinating.  Some may like him, dislike him, even smarmy comes to mind at times.  After today's call - I think it is the suit he puts on.  Just like me.  We all do it.  The front, the mask, the smile, the joker, the model, the sweetheart.  Don't deny it because that, my loves, is a suit as well.  We are human and the cathartic call we had today really improved me and enhanced my overall character in this world of madness.  Don't worry loves, I am not getting too dramatic.  Just know this, phone sex is a delicious way to enjoy your kinks, fetish and just all around general Jimmy Jack Johnson's Jerk Off Jamboree!!!  It can also be a very mutual, loving, respectful, trusting, honest (if not sometimes brutally), nurturing, mind trip in which we purge not only our fluids, but our burdens.  But never just "fake it" through your life.  You never know what is lying under that flesh, bone, walmart jeans, Ralph Lauren jacket, foster grant sunglasses or Dollar store cheaters.  Some of the most fascinating people are those that built themselves into beautiful creatures despite the shit and weeds amongst them.

The term catharsis has also been adopted to describe the act of expressing, or more accurately, experiencing the deep emotions often associated with events in the individual's past which had originally been repressed or ignored, and had never been adequately addressed or experienced. "... experience shows that if the patient is reproducing the traumatic scene to the physician, the process has no curative effect if,
by some peculiar chance, there is no development of emotion."

Catharsis is the emotional cleansing of the audience and/or characters in the play. In relation to drama it is an extreme change in emotion resulting from strong feelings of sorrow, fear, pity, or laughter; this result has been described as a purification or a purging of such emotions (whether those of the characters in play or of the
participating caller).

I am not saying cathartic calls are for everyone to experience with their favorite pso - but I am clearly stating that some of us may be smarter than the average bear and not all calls are based solely on what color are my panties and what's the biggest dick you ever sucked. 

If it takes spankings, faked adoration, humiliation, teasing, spitting, laughing and even punishing to bring out your inner desire for dacryphilia- sexual arousal by the sight or sound of your lover crying or yourself being made to cry- sexual gratification by causing your lover to cry or being made to cry - then Heaven could possibly take you there.

As Always,
Your Loving Angel who loves a good cry and heated ass,